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Current Mood: upset

sigh.

Every thought that I repent
There's another chip you haven't spent
And you're cashing them all in
Where do we begin to get clean again
Can we get clean again
I walk home alone with you
And the mood you're born into
Sometimes you let me in
And I take it on the chin
I can't get clean again
I want to know can we get clean again
The God of Wine comes crashing through
The headlights of a car that took you farther
Than you thought you'd ever want to go
We can't get back again
We can't get back again
She takes a drink and then she waits
The alcohol it permeates
And soon the cells give way, and cancels out the day
I can't keep it all together
I know I know I know...
I can't keep it all together
And the siren's song that is your madness
Holds a truth I can't erase
All alone on your face
Every glamorous sunrise
Throws the planets out of line
A star sign out of whack, a fraudulent zodiac
And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room
You let me down, I said it, now I'm going down
And you're not even around
And I said no no no...
I can't keep it all together
I know I know I know...
I can't keep it all together
And there's a memory of a window
Looking through I see you
Searching for something I could never give you
And there's someone who understands
You more than I do
A sadness I can't erase
All alone on your face

Sleeeeeeeep?

My sleep schedule is really messed up. I blame funding-free summers . . . so unscheduled! I should really work. It's so hard to care, though.

Only a few more days here, then loading the truck and getting on the road. New adventures, new life. Hopefully I'm not making the biggest mistake of my life! Only time will tell. I guess, now it's time to just try to make the best of it all.

Current Mood: distressed

WHYYY COFFEE POT WHYYYY.

My coffee pot decided to break this morning, in my hour of need. Noooooooooooooooooooo. :(

Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Radiohead - 2 + 2 = 5

Blargghhh work

So how long should you wait before reporting a missing person?

My lab manager, who is notoriously lazy about coming to work when he is "sick" -- regularly missing an entire week (never 4 days, always 5 business days), has now stopped showing up, answering his phone, emails, etc. Usually, when he is "sick" he sends an email. For instance, for the entirety of last week, he sent emails about being sick as the reason for not coming in

Then, on Monday, he didn't email, but didn't show up. Nor yesterday, nor today.

I'm now filling in for him, because my lab needs to run, experiments need to be covered, etc. And while I can't complain because I really need the money and it's the most work I've gotten this summer, it's also a lot to try to do all my work (I have analyses to do and papers to write up, coding work on the side, etc) in addition to keeping the lab running. And I was really excited about driving up to Chicago on Friday, because even if no funding means poverty, it also comes with a certain level of freedom! Guess that won't be happening now . . . in the meantime, I should just enjoy getting paid at all . . . .

Current Mood: groggy

Blaarghh

Why is one cup of coffee never quite sufficient? It is probably not a good sign when you spend 10 minutes of your morning ritual unable to locate the toothpaste.

Time to go experiment on the children!

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Rilo Kiley

No, data, noooo.

How did your values change while I left you alone, safe and sound?

It is the saddest story when you run the same statistics on what SHOULD be the same data and get different results.